dermk4 BLoG - Personal

Just to vent...

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 00:36:32 +0800

There are times that men need emotional escapes, to me they usually come in the form of rock music. There is this one guy I wanna call him every name I could think of, but I will not, instead I'll ask him to "get a life and get out of my way", asshole.

Music by Papa Roach sets the mood just right.

給身邊人

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Thu, 19 Jun 2008 17:29:35 +0800

這陣子身邊人被許多煩惱事纏繞著，想要給她一點安慰和鼓勵，奈何小弟不擅言詞，說話往往到了脣邊就出不了來。我想安慰普通朋友倒還容易一點，跟朋友能一起分憂就已經很足夠，對身邊人則少不免會想得週到一點，想多了、說多了卻又可能惹彼此的氣。說話我不懂也不會在這裡多說，我們作為基督徒，比別人應當是多了一點盼望。神從來沒有應許跟從祂便會一帆風順，但因著祂的保守，在危難中我們有平安。

以下幾句歌詞, 盼望她有機會看到能思想一下:

神未曾應許天色常藍，人生的路途花香常漫；
神未曾應許常晴無雨，常樂無痛苦，常安無虞。

神未曾應許我們不遇苦難和試探，懊惱憂慮；
神未曾應許我們不負許多的重擔，許多事務。

神未曾應許前途盡是平坦的大路，任意馳驅；
沒有深水渠汪洋一片，沒有大山阻高薄雲天。

神卻曾應許生活有力，行路有光亮，作工得息，
試煉得恩助，危難有賴，無限的體諒，不死的愛。

北京之行 - 中關村

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 12:17:35 +0800

早陣子因工事到北京待了幾天，平常我出差基本上是沒有什麼私人時間的，這一趟還好，剛到的一天完成工作後趁其他同事還沒有到便逕自到中關村走了一趟。

中關村是電腦商場的集中地，海龍、鼎好、太平洋、e世界等幾大腦場共有幾個高登、黃金般大。(都是那一句，當你逛遍上海、深圳、廣州、成都、台灣、新加坡、曼谷等地的腦場，你就知道還是黃金好) 小弟上一次到中關村是去年春節的事，一年後舊地重遊驚喜欠奉，倒是親眼見証了北京(或許也是中國整體)的過發展。近年無論腦場高檔消費品還是其他商場都不約而同地開完一家又一家，老實說，京城人口雖多，但哪能一下子養活這麼多高檔商舖? 相隔不過一年，有關燈的，有降格的，也有的捱不下去被逼關門。

去年小弟到中關村去的時候看到了一座興建中的漂亮教堂並拍下照片，一年後特地再去看看，回來比對一下，發現這教堂一年內的變化也蠻有趣。這教堂名為北京市基督教海淀堂，位於海淀區海淀西大街，中關村彩和坊9號。

海淀堂的設計師為 Meinhard von Gerkan，網站 http://www.gmp-architekten.de.

聚會時間: (Click to enlarge 點擊放大)

Song lyrics to share

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Mon, 26 May 2008 00:47:48 +0800

I have been repeatedly listening to these two songs recently, on one hand for they have great melodies, on the other for their inspiring lyrics. Not only are they for singles, for those of you who are already in a relationship, these are indeed two pretty good pieces to let you review and refocus your believes and attitudes toward love and relationship as a Christian.

不要驚動愛情 - 高皓正
曲：歐陽業俊詞：高皓正編：歐陽業俊監：歐陽業俊

很想輕撫你所以避開你
寧願用距離去令你好奇
迴避過眼神先偷偷喘氣
吩咐手臂放在原地
傳聞浪漫太快愛戀都走得快
才會遲遲未步向你說一世愛護你

情太過洶湧像深海而我卻會忍耐
但求來日你醒過來
這份情像翅膀打開
還沒有相擁別意外神教會我等待
待情流像細水才去承諾你
拿一生兌換愛

很心急擁抱所以在禱告
求甜蜜以前帶著你慢步
遊歷過旅途等一天終老
生老病死一起細數
原來慢慢靠近更珍惜這一吻
而我停留是為了你要給予你護蔭

能為愛戀學習按捺情信寄進心內
但求能學會倚靠神
愛被馴服過更精采
連地老天荒亦不更改時間永遠等待
等你情願那天才去承諾你
無止境那份愛
我用沈默叫醒愛情你用期待做你反應
繼續行近直至開始愛

Listen on Youtube.

王祖藍 / 彭家麗 - 好好戀愛

作曲 / 填詞：陳立怡　編曲：John Laudon

(女）我的天父，可否讓我好好地談戀愛，
不再流淚，不再傷痛，不再聚合又要分開。
我的天父，我只想要安穩地找個人來愛，
請讓我知道那個人在不在。

(男）我的孩子，難道你忘記了我就是愛，
學懂愛我，學懂愛你自己，你就懂好好戀愛。
我的孩子，何不嘗試安靜地慢慢去等待，
你就會知道那個人在不在。　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

(男）你是否願意相信，(女）願意相信，
每時每刻都在我手裏，沒有事情是太早或是太遲。

(男）願意相信， (女）愛我的主，我願意相信，
萬事萬物都在你手裏，我教你順服，我的旨意。

Listen on Youtube.

I miss the UofT libraries

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 00:49:45 +0800

Tonight, in the course of researching for my term paper, I told my girlfriend that I miss the UofT libraries; in response she asked, "is the CityU library really that bad?". Well... I was spoiled by the largest collection of academic literature in Canada, you can't compare when it comes to researching, I told her.

A quick search on wikipedia reveals that "The University of Toronto library system is Canada's largest academic library and is the third-largest in North America, after Harvard, and Yale. As of April, 2006, it held 10.5 million bookform items, 5.4 million microform items, and 1.9 million other items in its collections. The fourteen-storey Robarts Library is the main humanities and social sciences library, and the largest book repository in Canada. "

I could still remember the long nights spent behind piles of books at Robarts for those POL papers. But for one obvious reason, I love CityU just as much, I added.

在受苦節的零晨感謝神

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 00:43:23 +0800

在很短時間內看了兩次福音電影 "真的戀愛了?"，一次是以帥哥高皓正作餌軟硬兼施的抓了兩位女同事同往，另一次和誰看不用說了吧。這套電影並不拍得十分感人，但讓我學會了一點功課：

- 雖然我那兩位女同事最後並沒有因為高皓正的俊瞼而立刻對信仰產生興趣，但我深信神自有祂的時間表，這齣電影和它所傳遞的福音信息都必已悄悄地在兩位女孩心中播了種... 我剩下來可以做的，就是為她們禱告。

- 至於小弟的另一半，我其實從來也不認為憑己之力可以把她從新帶返教會，我憑咩? 我為這事禱告，然後... 神不但在週日崇拜差傳年會中帶來了風趣無悶場的羅祖澄牧師，也帶來了他的印尼宣教 powerpoint (女友的父毋是印尼華僑），至少我知道她很用心去聆聽。同一天下午，神也準備了這套電影，我不知道她看過後有何感受，但最少我自己從黃智賢的見證得到點啟發，更明顯地對這段關係多了安全感!

在 08 年受苦節的零晨，我為這一切感謝神。

Katherine Jenkins - I Will Pray For You

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Mon, 25 Feb 2008 16:11:11 +0800

此曲收錄於 Katherine Jenkins - Rojoice 大碟內, 附上歌詞, 請細心欣賞

As you find your way
Through this life you make
I hope you live each day
For all it’s worth
I will pray for you
Go where your heart leads
And dream your biggest dreams
All of these things
I will pray for you

I will pray for you
I will pray for you
Through every darkness
Through every light
This road ahead of you
I cannot carry you
But I can promise
I will pray for you

If a love so true
Breaks your heart in two
And it hurts so much
That you can’t forgive
And even the smallest step
Feels like miles away
But you’ll get there one day
I will pray for you

I will pray for you
I will pray for you
Through every darkness
Through every light
This road ahead of you
I cannot carry you
But I can promise
I will pray for you

So if you ever start to wonder
If you’re in this world alone
I’ll be there to help you over
If you lose your way
If you lose your faith

When your time is through
My final wish for you
Is to count you blessings not your regrets
With peace inside your soul
And all that heaven holds
I hope you always know
I will pray for you

I will pray for you
I will pray for you
Through every darkness
Through every light
This road ahead of you
I cannot carry you
But I can promise
I will pray for you

An Easter reminder

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Sat, 23 Feb 2008 13:55:54 +0800

From chocolate boxsets to Easter bunnies to public holidays, we could all tell Easter is just around the corner. This afternoon I noticed that one of the Google searches that has led someone to my blog involved the keyword "via Dolorosa", so I took the chance to watch the Via Dolorosa clip on YouTube again, to remind myself and hopefully some other visitors, that Jesus Christ had died for us and resurrected.

The Via Dolorosa / The Passion of the Christ MV can be found on YouTube (login needed), or via my old blog post a year ago.

是時候數算主恩

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Fri, 14 Dec 2007 01:41:57 +0800

年關將至，是時候數算主恩。對小弟來說，2007 絕對是滿有恩典的一年，不如意事當然有，但值得感恩的事情卻更是多著。

- 熟悉小弟一家的都會知道神在祖母身上的作為絕對是今年的頭號感恩重點。從中風、醫生宣佈她腦死亡、滯留西雅圖至回港就醫並逐漸康復，這一切都讓我們看到神賜下遠多於我們所求的恩典。我還清楚記得我獨自在家中又哭又鬧又禱告的那幾天，感謝神!

- 弟弟結婚了! 除了感謝神為他預備了一位好太太，讓祖父母一償心願外，也成了難得一家團聚的機會。

- 月前發生交通意外大難不死，車子更不用報銷!

- 給我有重拾書包的機會，在工作崗位感到意興闌珊，繼續讀書總算讓我有個奮鬥的目標。

- 至於其他，我深信神早有預備。

待續...

To 粉皮 & 大滾

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Mon, 27 Aug 2007 01:17:34 +0800

Happy birthday dudes, owe u celebrations.

God please lead on

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Thu, 09 Aug 2007 23:27:35 +0800

After a week of exciting progress, grandma is back into coma state these two days because of Staphylococcus aurcus (金黃葡萄球菌) infection. She is now isolated and visiting time is limited to some particular few hours a day, I can only see her an hour at most after work.

God please lead on.

不吐不快

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Fri, 27 Jul 2007 23:28:54 +0800

對於小弟來說，搖滾音樂是發洩不快的一個很好的途徑。無論我灰心失意、遭遇錯折失敗或是憤怒到火都黎埋，除了祈禱，就是 rock music。(遇著雞毛蒜皮的不快瑣事，更可能懶得祈禱，聽一遍吵耳的音樂發洩過便算...)

這兩天工作上遇到不如意事，也因為自己不屑迎合主管、不夠圓滑而把事情弄得更糟。心裡面其實明白肥太、阿強、cowboy 他們所說「上班受氣早已包括在薪金裡」這一套，奈何自己就是沉不住氣，遇到不公平對待便自以為是的據理力爭。結果... 當然是碰釘至頭崩額裂!

幸運地，剛從美國回來臥病在床的祖母，就像天使一般讓我片刻忘卻不快。每天看著她努力地和不同的病魔搏鬥 (今天又是肺炎)，我那些意氣之爭算得什麼?

今天伴著我的，是 Beyond 再見理想。

心中一股衝勁勇闖拋開那現實沒有顧慮
彷彿身邊擁有一切,看似與別人築起隔膜
幾許將烈酒斟滿那空杯中
藉著那酒洗去悲傷

舊日的知心好友何日再會?
但願共聚互訴往事
一起高呼Rock n' Roll ...
一起高呼Rock n' Roll ...

Good news to share with you all

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Thu, 26 Jul 2007 23:38:35 +0800

Thanks to your prayers, grandma now has reactions, not simply reflections like before.

She arrived in Hong Kong last night and was sent directly to hospital from the airport, she was so tired last night that she didn't move a bit. Tonight I went to see her after dinner, she briefly opened up her eyes and nodded to people talking to her.

"Grandma, I am here ar..." She nodded.
"Are you tired?" She shook her head.

Altho she went back to sleep right away, now we know she's just extremely tired, and out of her coma state! So, we sang this to her.

感謝神，禱告蒙應允，感謝神，未蒙垂聽，
感謝神，渡過了風暴，感謝神，豐富供應，
感謝神，賜我苦與樂，感謝神，絕望得慰，
感謝神，無比的慈愛，感謝神，無限恩惠。

Praise to the lord! HE does miracles.
In cheers. July 26, 2007.

說不出口

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Tue, 10 Jul 2007 17:48:33 +0800

我將於 11 號離開 Seattle，根據嬤嬤近日的病情發展，明天晚上有機會是我最後一次和她一起。我的腦袋現在完全一片空白，究竟我該傷心、不捨，還是感恩? 我不走不行，但這句「再見」怎說得出口? 有人能告訴我該怎去面對嗎?

Grandma's updates

nospam@example.com (dermk4) — Thu, 05 Jul 2007 17:05:29 +0800

Breath rate around 20/min, pulse ~100, blood pressure 130~140, body temperature 37'c, plus or minus.... still no sign of waking up.

I pray for the continuous faith, and of course, the healing.